This may be a bit much on a Tuesday morning but I was reading through a few blog posts I had written for my old blog and I came across a post about how, although unknown to me at the time, my eating disorder had led to me having osteoporosis at the age of 21. This was mainly because my menstrual cycle was so fucked up from my binging and restricting – I lost about a stone and a half (21lbs) in less than 3 months.
It took months of numerous scans, blood tests, and visiting specialist doctors who just couldn’t tell me what was going on – I know I could’ve had it far worse but at the time it was very frustrating (and expensive!). Then one day when I was scrolling through my Instagram feed I found an article by The Merry Maker Sisters about how losing weight can cause you to lose your period. This article could not have come at a better time, it made me wake up and realise just what I had been doing to my body. Here’s a little testimony I wrote to Emma and Carla after I had read their brilliant article for the first time:
I just wanted to thank Emma and Carla for helping make sense of what I have been dealing with for the past year and a half and for perfectly explaining it, better than any doctor I have seen so far, for being so open and honest about their personal experience and for helping to create awareness about the issue.
This really brought home the importance of staying healthy and losing weight safely and slowly. It also put things into perspective of just how intense I was with exercising and eating to get “the perfect body,” I had unrealistic expectations and I was just simply not living a sustainable lifestyle. Despite what we are made to believe by the media, there really is no one perfect body. Happiness with yourself has to come from within, not from looking a certain way or weighing a certain amount. I hope this will help you to realise the importance of treating your body with the respect it deserves by exercising, eating healthy while allowing yourself a few ‘treats,’ and losing weight (if you want) at a slow pace. I understand that if you are feeling really shit about yourself you want to lose weight as fast as possible and stop feeling so low but I promise you this is not what you want to do, faster does not mean better. Take it from not just me but hundreds of thousands of women who have done this, it will only fuck up your body and will leave you with all sorts of health complications. Complications that will last much longer than the time it would take you to lose weight steadily. It is always better to take it one step at a time, making small changes in order to achieve a sustainable, balanced, and healthy lifestyle.
The bottom line is your body deserves to be treated with love, care, and respect and when you intentionally binge, restrict, overexercise etc. you are not giving your body the love, care, and respect it deserves.